Daily Reflection for Thursday, February 20, 2020
Peace and Blessings, Friends and Parishioners,
We encourage you to reflect on Thursday's readings at this link:
If you prefer to use your own Bible, the readings are:
First Reading: James 2:1-9
Responsorial: Psalm 34:2-7
Gospel: Mark 8:27-33
Our reflection on Thursday’s readings:
He began to teach them that the Son of Man must suffer greatly. Mark 8: 31
I remember maybe 20 years ago, I received a call from my mother. She said that she went to see a neurologist and that she had the results of the tests. She called to ask me to help her understand them.
I received the results in the mail and read through them. I understood why she was confused as there was a lot of hard-to-understand medical jargon. However, the diagnosis was clear. The diagnosis was pre-Alzheimer’s.
I did not know what that meant. My mother was fine. We could talk on the phone well. She remembered everything I would tell her during our conversations. I did not know what to tell her as I did not know what the diagnosis meant. My mother has pre-Alzheimer’s? Is that even a diagnosis? Isn’t that how doctors diagnose patients, when they see signs of memory loss and do not know what other diagnosis to choose? Yes, my mother had Alzheimer’s and I did not understand the breadth of this diagnosis.
The more I heard the stories of caregivers, the more I realized that my mother would go through a slow and difficult process of memory loss and physical breakdown. It was a diagnosis that would impact her and those who loved her. It was a diagnosis from the doctor and a warning that we would suffer greatly. Yet, I did not believe it. In many ways, I refused to believe it. No matter what people told me about the process, I knew their stories would not be my story. I did not want to believe my mother would suffer.
In the Gospel today, Jesus gives a prophetic message to his disciples and others. He tries to prepare them for the diagnosis that He would suffer greatly. Peter who loved Jesus greatly, did not approve of Jesus spreading the message that He was to suffer greatly. Did Peter feel like me? Why would someone I love, have to suffer so greatly? Did Peter out of His love, want to save Jesus from this suffering? I too did not want the world to know the person I loved most in this world would suffer greatly. Is this how Peter felt?
Two years after her death, I am still unpacking my caregiving story. My mother has resurrected in my heart and I know her life continues to inspire mine. Her life brought me closer to God and God’s divine love. Is this the way Peter felt?
May you recognize God’s resurrected love in your heart today,
Margarita Solis Deal